Tuesday, July 31, 2012

So, today I'm 56...



This has been one of the most subdued and uneventful birthdays ever.  Disappointing?  Not really -- just different (maybe that's what happens when you own your relative "oldness" -- and keep it movin').

I hear, read and see (more often than I care to) how I should be at this point in my life.  Luckily, having long-passed that society-identified benchmark when I turned 45 ( soon as I find that column wherein I wrote about that extended celebration in Key West, I'll post it.  Now that was a helluva birthday party!), I could give two shits about how anyone else thinks I should be.



I'm grateful though, that I've been able to see some shit, do some shit and more importantly, learn some shit  -- that really matters.  My next "bucket list" item is to be able to openly and honestly share all of that shit with others who can see themselves in my lessons.

Life is something wonderfully amazing, and powerful, and painful, and certainly instructive -- all wrapped up into one.  I appreciate that, as of today at least,  I continue to have the opportunity to figure it all out.  ♬ Happy birthday to me; Happy birthday to me; Happy birthday dear De-e-e-b; Happy birthday to me!♬ 


12 comments:

The Fabulous Kitty Glendower said...

Happy Birthday! Keep on keepin on.

Deb said...

Thanks Kitty, I shall try!

Asabagna said...

Happy (Belated) Birthday Sis!

Much love and God Bless you with health, peace of mind and many more productive years!

Asa

Deb said...

Asa...No problem, belated's great too! :-D Thanks so much for the love and blessings, my Brother (Lord knows I need them!) Hope all is well with the family...

Ensayn1 said...

Happy (belated) birthday from this Leo brotha to my Leo sistah.

Peace!

Deb said...

Ensayn1...Thank you and welcome! A pride of lions is always a good thing! :-D

a.eye said...

Happy birthday!!

Glad you are seeing, doing, and learning lots of shit!!

Deb said...

a.eye...Thank you! Your 8/4, "What to do everyday" post is right in linewith the, "who," I continue to try to be!

Thanx for stoppin' in -- I appreciate your good vibes!

nomad said...

56? Is that all? I thought you said you were old. Anyway, hows things in the RL? "When shock comes calling" was profound. So profound I couldn't deal with it. That would have meant confronting my own bucket list moment. I'm still in a river in Egypt, BTW. Many different paranoias invading my brain. Sorry for abruptly privatizing Ironymous. For a while now I've been trying to decide what to do about the breach of my anonymity. I thought about terminating the nomad persona and starting over under a new pseudonym. But that probably wouldn't work. My ideas and manner of expression would always tie me with nomad. So anyway, I decided to compromise. Keep the nomad character; just make the political thoughts private. And they're not that private. Anybody who wants to see Ironymous will likely be granted permission. I'll continue to post stuff there. Hey! Maybe we can compare bucket lists. Meanwhile this is my primary blog: http://aislec.wordpress.com/

Deb said...

nomad..."56? Is that all? I thought you said you were old."

WELL! How the hell are you?? Lemme first tell you, flattery will get you nowhere! :-D Especially when you just up, and disappear without a word, privatizing your blog and shit (just kiddin' -- thanks for the compliment)!!

""When shock comes calling" was profound. So profound I couldn't deal with it. That would have meant confronting my own bucket list moment."

Thanks, Man. Appreciate that honesty and I know exactly what you mean. As "hard" as I've often been accused of being (I think I'm being honest and practical), the fear of not being able to, somehere soon down the road, take care of myself -- myself, lingers (all the more reason to get busy on my still-lengthy bucket list right?).

"Many different paranoias invading my brain."

Well you know "they" say, "Just because you're paranoid, doesn't mean they're not out to get you." No, changing wouldn't make a difference -- I'm pretty sure I'd still recognize your "voice!"

I'd wondered what was going on because I'd get my subscription email when you posted, but a password was lately, always required and I didn't know how to get to you to request it. Thanks for the primary blog link, I'll get over there soon.

Thanks for stoppin' in! Take care of yourself Man, and yeah! Let's compare those lists! :-D

nomad said...

"(all the more reason to get busy on my still-lengthy bucket list right?)."

Yeah. I know what you mean. I've just been through a "harrowing" three months, beginning with the words of my primary physician, "its important you keep this appt". Anyway, I just received confirmation Friday that the disease I have is not life threatening. So you can imagine that is good news for someone who for 2 months has thought he was dying. Still, I'm not out of the woods. This is still my bucket list moment. I've only got a few years to complete all of those projects I've been putting off for literally decades. It's a weird feeling to describe but I'm sure you know what I mean. I think of it as being tapped on the shoulder by Death. Not only do I have to make a bucket list I've got to change certain patterns of behavior. The hardest one is going to be procrastination. I've got no choice. I simply have to become more organized. Man, healthcare paperwork is a fulltime job, ain't it? It seriously eats into my blogging time. So I'm certainly revising my blogs if not in fact consolidating them. Streamlining the process.

So how are you? Any new difficulties?

Deb said...

"So you can imagine that is good news for someone who for 2 months has thought he was dying. Still, I'm not out of the woods"

(For two months, Mad?!) That is absolutely good news!

..."I've got to change certain patterns of behavior. The hardest one is going to be procrastination. I've got no choice. "

Me too, but it's hard as hell! The procrastination thing has a hold on me as well, but I gotta get up off my ass and get movin'!

"Man, healthcare paperwork is a fulltime job, ain't it? "

It sue is, and you better keep them organized and filed away where you can easily put your hands on them because come Obamacare's full 2013 thrust, you never know what headaches your "pre-existent condition" may cause!

I think revising and consolidating them will help keep you writing (still lookin' for some of that art, Man!).

I'm alive and breathing is about the best I can say right now. Thanks for asking. Nothing physical to speak of, but I gotta get that procrastination thing under control! Every now and then that "weird feeling" you talked about creeps up on me and I say, "Don't be afraid -- get your ass in gear!" :-D

Take care of your self 'Mad...

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