Wednesday, July 10, 2013

"Reasonable fear for his life?" -- a pack of skittles, and a can of tea vs. a damned gun with a bullet, racked in the chamber? Please!

I swore to myself that I would not write a single word about this trial until it was over, and I won't.  But I just cannot hold it all in.  Hell, I have society-identified Black sons -- older than Trayvon, but Black nevertheless.  My soul and heart are just completely overloaded with the fear that this murderer will go free.

Why?  Because it gives the "legally recognized" stamp of approval to a genocide that's been operating in plain sight, but ignored, for eons.

I won't be long here but, my oldest son said to me today, "How is it legalthat a person, carrying a gun, with a bullet racked in the chambercan follow you, walk up on you (a citizen in these alleged united states) -- and shoot you dead,  just because??!!  Why isn't the state continually hammering the plain illegality of that point??  What about Trayvon's right to defend himself??"

Sadly, all I could say to him was, "Because of the game that is the just-us system in this country, Son."  Lauryn absolutely nails what's happening in the Zimmerman trial right here...



...which is why, like Sister Lauryn:



"If I have to die, oh Lord, that's how I choose to live."  

Slowly but surely, I've realized there is no other alternative...

4 comments:

Carolyn Moon said...

I know....right??? Sis Deb, I can't even view the events surrounding this trial. I fear that if he's not acquitted, he'll be found guilty of manslaughter which as far as I'm concerned IS an acquittal.

I see you have Dr. Clarke on your sidebar. Respected him highly and his legacy. Dr. Na'im Akbar is one of the few scholars left that will speak the truth (not just facts) as he sees it. Have you listened to any of his speeches on Youtube?

Still not quite myself. There is a passage in one of Gloria Naylor's books..that says; "Old as she was, she still missed her daddy sometimes." Have mercy....

Deb said...

Hey Sis. Carolyn! Who IS that in that picture??? What a beautiful silver-haired Black woman! I can only hope that I gray as well! :-D

I didn't watch it from the very beginning because it was jus too hard on my heart and soul. But I picked it up before the prosecution rested -- and I still wasn't quite ready, but I couldn't not watch once I started. And then when the defense presented their case, all I could feel was sorrow and pain for Trayvon's parents. They had to keep hearing their child cry for help along with the shot 9i don't believe for one minute that was Zimmerman crying out! What the hayell would this grown-assed man with a gun have to cry out about?? {smdh}

Adding insult to injury, there's a petition to get the Changeling to speak to us niggers so we won't riot if Zimmerman is acquitted!! --http://breakingbrown.com/2013/07/white-house-petition-calls-on-obama-to-keep-blacks-from-rioting-if-zimmerman-acquitted/

What the hell is that?! I'm so sick of these damned people! I could care less what the Changeling has to say. What I want to know is, when the hell are we going to stand up -- for us!

Dr. Clarke has taught my Black self (via videos and his books) more than I'd EVER learned about us iin my whole life!!! I so appreciate and admire his determined scholarship. When I graduated from high school, I had a choice to go to Harlem and live with my aunt, or take the scholarship and go to an HBCU in Alabama. I took the scholarship and didn't learn jack! I regret, every day, that I didn't take my aunt up on her offer. I could have studied at the feet of this Master Griot at Hunter College and learned some wonderfully, self-esteem building things about myself and my people! I know hindsight is 20/20, but I just had to throw that out there.

Never listened to Dr. Akbar, but I will now, because I trust your judgement. Thanks for that heads-up. I'm gathering as many videos, articles and books of truth-tellers as I can, because when I move home in the next few months (my current plan), I want to start having informal Saturday get-togethers with young folk so they can proudly "know, from whence they came."

"Still not quite myself."

You and me both, Sis -- but for different reasons. I read that beautiful post about your Daddy and it just clawed at my heart -- my sincerest condolences, my sister.

I loved my Daddy like that and, even though he came up short in a lot of areas, he loved me, his only daughter, dearly. He died when I was pregnant with my oldest, at 48 years young -- never met either of my sons. And old as I am too, I still miss him, immensely.

Keep your head up as best you can, Dear-heart...

Carolyn Moon said...

"Hey Sis. Carolyn! Who IS that in that picture??? What a beautiful silver-haired Black woman! I can only hope that I gray as well! :-D"

Hi Sis Deb, I came across this while doing some research on unsung black female pathfinders from the 18th-21st century. She reminds me of two of my aunts and is stunning as she ponders. This image (no name or info on her) captured how I feel when I'm looking out my window and trying to make sense of things. I believe it to be a part of public domain.

"Adding insult to injury, there's a petition to get the Changeling to speak to us niggers so we won't riot if Zimmerman is acquitted!! --http://breakingbrown.com/2013/07/white-house-petition-calls-on-obama-to-keep-blacks-from-rioting-if-zimmerman-acquitted/ "

Understood! I get this image of the old Tarzan movies we watched as children. We didn't know any better. You had this "native" fighting off the other natives to protect "Bwana". You get my drift? :-(

" I could have studied at the feet of this Master Griot at Hunter College and learned some wonderfully, self-esteem building things about myself and my people! I know hindsight is 20/20, but I just had to throw that out there."

I'm older than you and although I knew he was at Hunter College; I only got to hear him on TV during interviews. I've read his books and was really moved when he spoke of his reaction upon hearing the death of Malcolm X and what that meant for us as a people. I'm intrigued about your future plans with the 'youngins' and impressed. I wish you much success with that. It is sorely needed. As you learn about Dr. Akbar {http://aalbc.com/authors/naim_akbar.htm}--this was the safest not the best site to enter with a list of his books... please check out Queen Mother Moore. I did hear her up close but was so intimidated as a young woman; I did not come forward nor introduce myself. I regret that. http://www.hierographics.org/mothermoorebio.htm

"I loved my Daddy like that and, even though he came up short in a lot of areas, he loved me, his only daughter, dearly. He died when I was pregnant with my oldest, at 48 years young -- never met either of my sons. And old as I am too, I still miss him, immensely."

So you truly understand my grief. Thank you so much for this gift of sharing. Peace.....

Deb said...

Hey, Sis Carolyn. Apologize for the delay, just starting to get over a horrible summer cold, coupled with a depression I've not been able to shake, made all the more heavy by the verdict in this trial.

"You had this "native" fighting off the other natives to protect "Bwana".

Yeah, I absolutely get your drift. I watched those movies too and you're right, we didn't know any better then. And while you may have only heard Dr. Clarke on TV during interviews, you at least had some exposure to his brilliance, which undoubtedly formed a different world view than those of us who had no knowledge of him at all.

"I'm intrigued about your future plans with the 'youngins' and impressed."

I have to tell you that, I've not worked out the particulars yet, but after this trial, I'm thinking how I can modify those plans given SC is as Deep South as FL is -- and it's not getting any better! I've got some other ideas involving how to get some of our Black young folk to West Africa to my friend's Black History Center where they can learn about who they are in a setting, surrounded by folk who look like them. We'll see...

I didn't know about Dr. Akbar before but have listened to some of his videos since you gave me the heads up and I agree with a lot of what he has to say. Also read Mother Moore's bio you provided the link to and, just like Dr. Clarke, I would've benefitted greatly by knowing more about them long before. Your'e so right that it is sorely needed that our kids get this information now, rather than later. I can attest to that from my own personal experiences.

You're very welcome Sis. All I can say is, I truly understand what it feels like to have lost a father who, despite his shortcomings -- loved you madly. And I had that, but not long enough. Gotta start writing this post on he trial before my head explodes.

Peace back atcha...

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